ardent bullshit comes down every faultline gushing heavily into jest kindly luscious melons nodding openly post quakes resting still to undermind various wonderous xylophones yawning zealously

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Hurt So Good

You know when your muscles are so sore that your bones hurt? That's where I am right now. Thank you killer ballet & pilates classes. Time for a hot bath.

You know what else? I've learned a lot about people lately & through that, myself. This remains a constant experience with random blips of realization. Emotionally, it's exhilarating and sad. If nothing else, more compassion grows in my heart.


Saturday, July 18, 2009


Another first this weekend.........a visit to Cape Cod (The Cape). Last night I slept a straight 7.5 hours without waking up once. This is glorious & amazing. Time for a jog.....and then some seafood.

Pictures to come.


Friday, July 10, 2009

Chump Change

Yo. In the midst (goes out this afternoon) of another huge grant. This one is $14 million for HIV immunology. There is another one, for $20 million, at the end of the month. That will make it close to $100 million in submitted grants within less than 2 years.

I feel anxious, nervous & hadn't slept well (2 hour here, 3 hours there) in a week. Last night was the first time I've dreamt in over a week & I usually dream every night at least a little.

I'm usually a good sleeper, what can I say?

People want to "go out" after work. For Scorpion Bowls (super-sugary kool-aid + shelf vodka) at the Hong Kong (frat boys & bros) for Karaoke (voluntary public humiliation).

The bathtub & an enormous bowl of Breyer's Strawberry & my couch for a girlie movie seem much more in order. Fortunately, my friend, Heidi, who is also a masseuse (massage therapist, whatever), has open appointments this weekend. Hello 90 minutes of pure body love & thanks Dad & Mo for the birthday present.

Labels: , ,

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Happy Birthday to me.....and you

That is one of the most bizarre & awesome videos ever.


Saturday, July 04, 2009

The Birthday Party

Yesterday I had a 30th birthday party for myself. It was amazing. By the end of the night costumes were dragged out and my collection of wigs worn by party-goers. Couldn't have asked for anything better.

We ate stuffed burgers, hot dogs, homemade bread, root beer floats, chips, etc. Drank champagne, beer, wine, soda, martinelli's and sparkling grape juice.

Spending time with my favorite people recharged my battery. And reassured how wonderful my life is. After a couple weeks of feeling sorry for myself, hating rain & generally being down in the dumps (not to mention getting devastating news), this was exactly what snapped me out of the funk.

So as I charge into 30, single, I am not alone. Fortunately, I have an army of beautiful artists, teachers, writers, computer programers, vending machine salesmen, surgeons and lawyers to stand with and love. Who also love me. What a lucky girl.

Labels: ,

Friday, July 03, 2009

For Yesterday

200 pages down. 200 to go.

Time to stuff some hamburger this afternoon. Wish I had my partner in crime here to make them with me.


Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Too late

Residual feelings.

Truth: I worry.

Bigger truth: about things I probably shouldn't.

Biggest truth: it evokes resentment.

Resentment: why?