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Thursday, September 30, 2010

What I've Kept With Me and What I've Thrown Away

Tonight struck me with my first bout of melancholy in a few weeks. It's been a fast, long week. Time went by quickly but emotions have hit pretty hard. Birthdays, births, and memorial services. Maybe watching an old friend on Youtube wasn't the best idea today. Maybe reading passages written in old year books didn't do any good. Maybe I'm just a bit worn out.

Who knows.

In the past couple weeks I've experienced something that I haven't in so long that I'd forgotten what it feels like.

To be happy all alone.

Sitting in my apartment, lounging after a bath, I am completely content & fulfilled. It'd been over a year since I'd last held that. Despite feeling a bit out of sorts, I don't have any inclination to run out & get any attention I can for validation sake.

It's nice to just sit still, listen to the wind push the leaves around outside my window, & curl up with a book. Television is too noisy right now, people too complicated. But books, they provide me with enough action to keep my interest, yet enough detachment to not bring up anxiety or the desire to control the situation.

As long as I can remember, I've loved stories. Both listening to and telling them. Something magical lives in a well-told tale. You're able to put yourself into another life, increase compassion. The bad guy rarely all bad and the good guy rarely all good. Just like reality. But without the harsh reality of egos directly affecting you.

But that's just one humble opinion.

Who knows.

All I do know right now is that the crickets lend the perfect soundtrack to the evening. I'll miss them when they're gone for the season.

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Two to the Fifth

Gah! Every time I sat down to write, something came up. And even now, it's time for sleep so not much. The one thing I can report is that lots of changes are in the works. All good changes. And as a result, I'm currently happier than I've been in as long as I can remember.

Happy Days are Here Again!

Since my eyelids are at half mast, I'm going to snuggle up with The Forgotten Garden, Georgie, Henry, & the knowledge that today was a lovely day.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Goin' to the Chapel....., wait. I mean a barn.

Yes, this weekend my friends M & E got married in Vermont! In a barn! (not a stinky barn) And it was so wonderful! And perfect! And made everyone so happy that the exclamation points flowed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wrote a little thing about it here.

The whole weekend was such a great treat. I even did a little bit of flirting. But in the end failed. (cue Price is Right fail music) You can read all about it in the above link.

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